Its been a long Year for me, its turned out to be not very nice end to it.
Cath went to London a year ago, asked me to wait for her, then when she came home the other week, told me it was over , coming back to Australia was very depressiing for for, she was having so much fun just tripping all over Europe, I and our relationship was not enough for here and she would probably just go back there. Not really what I expected to say the least.
I'm a little gutted I must admit, disappointed she did it the way she did, disappointed that she kept me hanging for a year on hold, didappointed she constantly told me how much she loved me and missed me, dissappointed that although she loved and missed me so much , it was obviously not enogh to want to be with me, disappointed that she could not see that if we had worked as a team, that we could have done it all, travelled , had expreiences that we could share not only now, but be able to remember together later in life, and had a home. I think that later, after maybe another year of not having to work, just running around having fun, never actually having to support herself in a true sense of making a life and a home, not having any plan for the future than she can just live off others and her turning 30, she may look back at her descision now and think differently about it.
I'm not angry, I cant love someone who doesnt love me, and its obvious she doesnt. So whats the future hold??? Dont know, never really did, I did have a bit of and idea though, but now, its all wide open again. I turn 44 in a little over a month, then Its a new year, I do hope 2011 is a better year than this last one. Lifes little ups and down get us all, I know others that have had far worse years than myself, I'm just trying to find my little piece of happiness.
cmohr
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I'm Toight... Toight lik a Toiger.
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When I go to the Toilet, Chuck Norris is there to tear the squares off for me.
"Pass me another one Chuck, and keep em coming!! On sencond thoughts..Go get the hose"
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